What Im Feeling Today (Put To Words By Someone Else)

I quote,him

"I remember when I was young and knew everything. Ah, the old days. Now I just don't give a fuck about knowing. I just want to live and let live. That's really one of my main philosophies of life now. LIVE AND LET LIVE.

I mean, I would love to judge the crap out of you and get all upset about how you are living your life, except I don't have a leg to stand on. And besides that, it is totally exhausting. That's the main thing. I'm too tired at 46 to tear into the world. I don't mind watching Kathy Griffin do it. I don't even mind reading a little bit of other people's ranting and raving. I just can't go there anymore without paying an awful price. Plus, I really don't care if anyone likes me anymore. At least not on a broad scale. It gets to me in little neurotic random moments when it matters least, like in line at a store or something.

I tried for so many years to be spiritual and non-judgmental and instead I just got meaner and crankier. Now, I realize that mental and emotional fatigue is the road to loving compassionate acceptance and inner-peace. A few weeks ago I was on a rant about some people who were bugging me in my personal life, and now I realize that I'm pretty much done with that. It was just the last roar I needed to let out in order to know that it's okay to eliminate something from your life without getting upset or even being judgmental about it. I can just say, "good for you, waaaaaay over there."

Now, if I start to get all worked up about what someone is up to, suddenly I realize I really just don't give a fuck what they are doing. My God this is a happy way to live."

Unquote. Damn, Im feeling 46 on a Sunday evening.

"You are not really capable of being tired, but you are perfectly capable of wearying yourself. The strain of constant judgment is virtually intolerable."
--A Course in Miracles

"Never complain, never explain."