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Lovemachine presents Decadence

2006-12-07T17:42:00.000+08:00

Head over the lovemachine blog to check on details and music.

Cheers. Gomi's is so good. Shame if youd miss it.

So Now It's Over

2006-09-27T13:49:00.000+08:00

After much thought Ive decided, naaahhh this blogging thing is not for me. I did enjoy documenting my thoughts and etc, the youtube whoring and etc, but I dont think I'm made for blogging. I'm too much of a private person to crave any attention from anyone and I dont even think I have anything important to say. So this is adios people. Especially to those who have wasted their time trying to make sense of me sometimes.

However I'm still youtube whoring and sharing music with those I care about. So u can catch me documenting stuff (just no ranting)..at http://musicploitation.multiply.com. Ive posted some music too for u to download from time to time,..if I know you personally, add me as a friend and you will see more stuff that Im sharing.

So in the eternal words of Heidi Klum..Auf Wiedehersen (did I spell that right?)

I'm off.

2006-08-25T17:18:00.000+08:00

It looks like I keep finding blog entries I want to quote.

I quote her, its fictional, but good.

"
I need a letter but not that kind

He’s playing this song that’s supposed to take the place of post-coital conversation, and I know he’s trying to tell me something but not what. I turn away from him in the bed, trying not to listen to the song, because I am crying, and whatever it is the song is supposed to be telling me, that’s what’s making me cry. He doesn’t notice, though—not that I am crying, not that I have purposely turned away from him. He sees right through me, I am an afterthought to him, and it is only now that I am figuring this out. I can’t place my tears, but they probably come from a subconscious sense that this is the last time we will be lying here like this—that this is the last time he will fuck me and then play some song to make it look like there’s more to it than that. I realize now that he doesn’t care who I am, doesn’t want to learn more about me, doesn’t want to be with me. It’ll take him four more days to figure it out for sure, at which point he’ll stop by my room and, not bothering even to sit down or suggest that I do so, he’ll tell me that he doesn’t think we should date anymore. Then I’ll offer him the option of either sitting, which both of us should be doing already, or leaving, with the intention that he’ll leave and I’ll be alone to cry, thus saving face by not doing so in his presence.

But he won’t. He’ll stay, and I’ll cry, and I’ll say some bitter things that I’ll later overanalyze and possibly even regret, and he’ll give me the most empty hug I have ever felt and I will know then what I have feared all along—that what he feels for me is nothing. And he’ll say to call if I want to hang out or just talk, and he’ll walk out of my room and never think about me again, if he’d ever thought about me at all. And I’ll bawl as if we really had something, and I’ll replay every encounter I’ve ever had with him in my mind, punishing myself for not letting him know the things about me that he would have liked enough to stick around, ignoring the fact that he never asked. I’ll think about his scars sometimes, especially the one on his upper back, and that will lead to thoughts of how he’d turn into a little boy when I rubbed his back, and how I would have done anything to make him happy. And I’ll wonder if I loved him, if I love him, all the while knowing that this is what it felt like when I was “in love” in high school, which turned out to be nothing more than an unrequited crush.

And when I grow up and raise my kids in the town next to his, I’ll think about him every so often, and maybe I’ll run into him sometime with the woman he wanted to talk to after sex, and of course she’ll be one of those women who don’t have much to say. And I’ll look in the mirror later and wonder how he hit me so hard, whether I loved him or the idea of him more. I’ll think about how I never thought I was that into him while we were together, except when we were in bed. And I’ll realize that this was the only time he was into me, that this was the only me he knew.

And when, four days from now, he does walk out my door, that song, the one he played our last night together, will form the soundtrack to my tears. I’ll continue to search for the meaning he was trying to convey, even though I know the search is futile. I’ll never call him to hang out or talk, because I realize that if I do so, I run the risk of coming to feel all the things he thinks I already feel for him. Maybe I’ll run into him later in the semester at a party, and we’ll both be drinking, and we’ll kiss, and we’ll go upstairs, and I’ll want to let him touch me but I won’t, and when he asks I’ll tell him that I don’t need any more memories of him. And he’ll look at me like he’s hurt, but he won’t say anything, because for one so good with words he never has much to say. And later as I think about his lack of reaction to that or anything I’ve said to him, I’ll think of all the expectations I had of him that he failed to meet. And I’ll be content to remain without him until I think of the other expectations, those he surpassed.

And that song. “Yr Letter” by onelinedrawing. Eventually I will cease to care about the letter in the song, or what it meant to him, because I will be thinking about another letter, the one I sent him, the one that started this whole mess. And I’ll wish I’d never sent it, that he’d never read it. I’ll wish I’d never held any place in his life, that I’d never given him a place in mine. "

What Im Feeling Today (Put To Words By Someone Else)

2006-08-20T23:20:00.000+08:00

I quote,him

"I remember when I was young and knew everything. Ah, the old days. Now I just don't give a fuck about knowing. I just want to live and let live. That's really one of my main philosophies of life now. LIVE AND LET LIVE.

I mean, I would love to judge the crap out of you and get all upset about how you are living your life, except I don't have a leg to stand on. And besides that, it is totally exhausting. That's the main thing. I'm too tired at 46 to tear into the world. I don't mind watching Kathy Griffin do it. I don't even mind reading a little bit of other people's ranting and raving. I just can't go there anymore without paying an awful price. Plus, I really don't care if anyone likes me anymore. At least not on a broad scale. It gets to me in little neurotic random moments when it matters least, like in line at a store or something.

I tried for so many years to be spiritual and non-judgmental and instead I just got meaner and crankier. Now, I realize that mental and emotional fatigue is the road to loving compassionate acceptance and inner-peace. A few weeks ago I was on a rant about some people who were bugging me in my personal life, and now I realize that I'm pretty much done with that. It was just the last roar I needed to let out in order to know that it's okay to eliminate something from your life without getting upset or even being judgmental about it. I can just say, "good for you, waaaaaay over there."

Now, if I start to get all worked up about what someone is up to, suddenly I realize I really just don't give a fuck what they are doing. My God this is a happy way to live."

Unquote. Damn, Im feeling 46 on a Sunday evening.

"You are not really capable of being tired, but you are perfectly capable of wearying yourself. The strain of constant judgment is virtually intolerable."
--A Course in Miracles

"Never complain, never explain."

Fendi & Paris Sitting On A Tree

2006-08-16T17:47:00.000+08:00

I will be here. Check us out

A.W.O.L

2006-08-03T15:38:00.000+08:00

Havent been able to blog anything for these few reasons.

i)I fucking spilled milo on my laptop and now its somewhere being repaired.
ii)Too lazy to head to a cyber cafe just to blog (please)
iii)Nothing much to report but work, work and more work.

However, updates.

Im djing for Get2Gether Welcome party tomorrow at Frangipani. Come and join me if u can. Here is a disco set most recent from moi which u can download. Click here.

Ehem.

I might shift this blog to Multiply coz I love the features there. I can even post music. I already sign up but now Im thinking do I keep this blog or I just post music & vids for friends at Multiply. Im giving myself some time to decide.

Will keep u posted.

Let's close this with something sweet.

Less Obsessed But Not Forgotten

2006-07-24T16:10:00.000+08:00

Elliott Yamin sightings!

Jake Shears Jake Shears Jake Shears

2006-07-20T02:02:00.000+08:00

Why do you have to be so goddamned gorgeous? Cant wait for the new Scissor Sisters album.
That's it. Now this makes me wanna go back to the gym. His body is envy inducingly gorgeous yet very natural. Hmm.

Check out Jake getting nekkid here.

I'm bringing SEXYBACK!

2006-07-17T15:06:00.000+08:00

The new Justin is slinky. Strangely sexy. I bet the video will be filled with people in all stages of sweaty dry humping. It's basically Justin updating Sir Mix A Lot's "Baby Got Back" on a thudding club friendly beat by Timbaland. I dont know whetehr it will do well in the charts but the clubs would rock this. I bet Radioslave is working on an edit this very second.

Since I will be playing 3 gigs in August, I decided that I need to feature a few new remixes to keep it fresh. It just so happens that my remixing spree began last night with "Sexyback". It started out as a mash-up with Green Velvet's La La Land that in the end transforms itself into a deep-ish electro tinge mix. It's still not done yet and I think the mix will change shape again in a week or two but if youre curious, check out the mix in my player. Im putting the mash up and the club mix in there.

I will update the playlist with new house mixes by the end of the month so that people can sample some of the new stuff im playing. As usual.

As a bonus, feel free to download my mash-up with Green Velvet La La Land.

Beyonce - Deja BOOOO!!!!

2006-07-16T14:36:00.001+08:00

I mean, me, of all people finding this horrendous. I love the song, its a perfect summer groove and with a cool video it wouldve totally won me over (cue:Christina Aguilera Aint No Other Man..Hello!), but this video is overdone. I would think that with all the money she has and all the money her record company is shelling for the promotion of this, I was expecting more. An En Vogue style video ala My Lovin wouldve been great. This...yikes! It gives me the shivers watching her do this song, and its not in a good way. It's like you're watching someone make an ass of themselves on a stupid talent show. Yes, it's like watching William Hung! I must say..I must REALLY feel bad for Beyonce that I had to do a post on this. Girl's a hot mess. It almost like she thinks "fuck everything else, everybody just wants to see ME ME ME ME ME ME...I'm hot shit, fuck everything else". Beyonce...Eeeew! I can imagine all the drag queens doing parody of this shit in weird weird outfits - Lil Bo Peep, Dykes on Bikes, Barney, Teletubbies,...Just change the outfits as much as u can in 4 minutes.
And I bet they'll be funnier. Even Tina Turner was never this hoochie B! Not even Madonna at her hoochiest best and Madonna was showing more skin. Am I threatened by how feral this woman is...I dont think so. Usually I would applaud such intensity. But this is just not right. I dont think Tina Turner would approve either.

In the eternal words of Fauziah Latiff on Malaysian Idol," the song and your performance, tak jive lah!"

What the fuck is this? Step off the high horse miss. Boo!!!

Ive heard the remixes, the Maurice one is typical but OK. Waiting for the rest of the promo to reach me before I decide. I'd support the song coz it's good, but no Beyonce idolization here this time. To think that I used to be such a big fan.

**Update**I kid you not, this article is real. Just found it. She is really getting too big for her britches.

"Superstar Beyonce Knowles blames her beautiful looks for preventing people from seeing what a talented artist she really is. The former Destiny's Child singer has enjoyed a flourishing solo career and has had movie success starring in films including The Pink Panther - but she still yearns to be respected as an artist. The 24-year-old says, "It's frustrating, because sometimes, when you are attractive, people don't acknowledge that you are talented as well. "I mean, I'm a songwriter, I'm a producer, I have a strong voice, I'm a dynamic performer. Sometimes people forget that."

So You Think You Can Vogue?

2006-07-13T16:58:00.000+08:00

Vogueing threw me back to the early 90s when I was in NY. Never really knew how to Vogue. I only learned the moves..the Madonna version of course...when I came back to KL from Ies, haha, but I had always found them darned vogue kids fascinating. Madonna has nothing on these kids. So here are some clips I found. So whatcha think? Strike a pose?

Serve it bitch!

For some legendary new Vogueing pics...Head here. I wish I had been to one of these balls. Its picture heavy..but a must see nonetheless.

America's Funniest Gay Videos

2006-07-10T12:27:00.000+08:00

LOL. Come be gayer today!

Weekend Amusement

2006-07-10T01:52:00.000+08:00

Im updating this blog sometimes because I feel guilty. Commitment. New thing. Have to learn. Blogging about things that make u excited cant be that hard now is it? Ok! Some tripped out excerpts while Im still awake.

Courtesy Of Mikey. Is it because I have waaay too many shoes? Shit I wish I could remix this and turn it totally campy as if it's not campy enough as it is. OMG, let's get some shoes.

Ladies and Gentlemen, Miss Amanda Lepore!!!

They have a new album coming! Scissor Sisters is the shit. I love really gay bands.

For something to sweeten the buds after all the show.

India Arie dueting with John Legend. Too sexy. Love it when India lets her hair loose at the end.

Siapa Bilang Lagu Melayu Tak Menawan.

2006-07-05T22:56:00.000+08:00

I dont know what have gotten over me, but I'm glad of this newfound appreciation of lagu lagu Melayu that I suddenly am feeling. Was never sucked into the hype of all the Siti and etc, I just dont understand the appeal. I did love Indonesian songs though. Maybe the melody and the lyrics appeal to me more.

But I found myself listening to Malay songs from both Indonesian and Malaysian artists non stop since Sunday. Maybe I just had way way wayy to much house music that weekend that it felt sort of refreshing.

So I'm gonna add some Malay tunes to my playlist for June. Im picking my selections now.

**UPDATE**
I couldnt decide whether to remove my previous house selection because I know some people visit this blog of mine to listen to some house..hehe. The songs are still there, just shifted them to the bottom. Scroll down.

Some of these are older, e.g. we start with the housey mix of Ning's Bebaskanlah and we go on to other current fave of mine like Mike, Marcell, & Sad Angry Babies. I will add more because I just have shitload of songs that I want to put up. I'm also receiving some other exclusive malay housemixes soon..and I will put it up for your enjoyment. Ok, i'm done for the day. Gonna head to Midvalley to but the new Nikki Palikat CD - Maharani.

**UPDATE 2**
Ive added some remixes from Nikki's bonus CD. It's awesome. More please. Managed to use "Pinta" minus one version to extract a filtered acapella for me to maybe remix. Would I dare play a malay house mix at prime time? I think if the mix is hot, yeah why not. But how do u make Malay house remixes credible? Let's try and find out if I can come up with something that I can actually use.

Dont Go To Bed Mad!

2006-07-05T00:06:00.001+08:00

Yesterday I wrote something that, now, Im not so sure I shouldve written. Ive decided to remove it from my post because it was so trivial and I dont want it to escalate into something ugly. Usually I'm very good at biting my tongue but I think the whole weekend and its excessiveness took a toll on my nerves. I was writing in anger. Anger blinds you.
Honestly I was just very disappointed that I felt as if I was lied to. Maybe it wasnt even a lie. Maybe it wasnt even intentional. However at the heat of the moment, with all the unnecessary things that went with it, it felt like it was. It's not like it's a big deal, but it was definitely something unexpected.
In my mind, I felt that if given the chance, I could understand why things happen the way they did. It just feels very sad that I wasnt offered any explanations. So you sort of feel that maybe you dont matter as much as you thought you were. But honestly nothing in this world is that simple. Life is as complicated as it is cliche. So I'm not gonna pretend as if I know how everything in this world should work.
However, after a day of rest and a talk with the close friend who I was mostly mad at, Ive decided that I have no reason to be so worked up over something like that. It's a waste of unneccessary energy. I dont want to taint all the good things we've had with something as silly. If I could balance our friendship on a scale, he means more to me as a friend than this stupid thing that we got into. I know you read this sometimes, and you know this is about you, so I think I have to apologize to you too. Just remember on what we agreed on ok?
I guess, sometimes we always expect people, especially those dearest to us, to do the right things but not everyone always do. I dont always do the right things. I make mistakes. Ive done things that I thought was right but it screwed up some other things. We humans are flawed. We are not perfect. That's part of what makes our experience in life richer. That's how we learn how to live better. Trial and error. Mistakes and lessons. It's a cycle that we all go through.
Sometimes we do things for reasons that are uniquely ours. You could never totally understand what goes on in someone else's head, but your own. There will be times when we just have to do what we have to do. Not every decision we can make in this world is a win win situation. So I dont see the reason why I have to impose righteousness on other people when I can be the same. So I will just leave this be, and hopefully one day I'll get to hear the actual story. I dont want to assume. Assumptions are never correct anyways. Often with assumptions you get disappointments because nothing will ever be as what you expected it to be. Unless you count Mathematics. I always told people this, many many times, but I guess I ate my own words yesterday. I became the anger ball of my own assumptions.

Ok.I'm not gonna post about this little insignificant incident anymore. I had a great weekend all in all. And I wont let a moment of confusion taint some of the best times Ive had this year. I DJed for a great party. My friends came to support me early on the dancefloor which made my job easier. We had a fucking great turn out (it's not 500+ but instead it was 700+ wahey!). I get to play a rocking set (in my opinion lah) which Ive missed doing. I get to see my sister/protege broke his serious DJing cherry and came up trumps (it was almost like seeing your baby graduates!). I couldnt have been happier or prouder. I should enjoy that. It doesnt come often.

There will be more great parties to come. Next weekend I'm resting though to straighten my brain a bit. Sometimes a good rest is all we really need.

Weekend Dos and Diss

2006-07-03T14:21:00.000+08:00

First and foremost, let's start with the good things.

#1 -Flirt was a HUUGEE success! Overall response was very positive and for an under promoted event, the 500+ head count at the door was kind of surprising. I didnt have any problem starting the dancefloor early as all the early boys were revved up and ready to go at 11pm. By the time I passed the baton to Bobby at 1, the floor was hot and throbbing. Delicious! Very very very happy with how the event went. So funny when Bobby also played Mary J Blige's - Be With You after I did. Luckily, 2 different mixes! So Mary got two props that night. Anyways, note to Will. They need an DJ/Announcer thing to welcome the people. I dont do microphones.

Props to Thomas for his first big event warm up. You did well sister. I am very very very proud of you. You will be playing the main set soon enough (and I can rest :))

More pics here.

#2 - Malaysia boleh! My new favorite tune at the moment is Nikki & Zahid - Caramu. I cant say enough about how awesome Nikki sounded in this song. I dont follow the Malay pop scene much as some of the stuff on radio grate my nerves anyway, but this is a really cool dance-pop offering from Nikki. Good job girl! Take it to the top! But Nikki, word of advice, next time get bigger hair!!! Hehe

Yes. Good times, good times.

Bianca Ryan is possessed!

2006-06-30T16:32:00.000+08:00

Tell me which black woman had possessed this little girl? Her damn pipes are bigger than her dress! What will she be when she reach her 20's?

I think I should start keeping track of the show.

On a totally unrelated note, I am looking for anyone who has a copy of Aishah & The Fan Club 2 CDs from back in the days. Especially Respect The Beat! I'd buy it off ya or I'd buy the duplicate copy off ya. Or you can be nice and just make me a copy lah. Im thinking of resuscitating her for the clubs with some new mixes.

Anybody who knows anybody who knows anybody who has the CD especially the version of Respect The Beat with the house mix of Dont Let Me Fall Alone...gimme a holler!! Paul Moss?

Flirt @ Orange, Saturday July 1st 2006

2006-06-27T11:12:00.000+08:00

So this weekend is the first Flirt event for Will & gang. I hope it will be a successful well turned out event for the first time party organizer.Im Djing as a warm up for Bobby B. After discovering the wonders of Webjay MP3 player (it's the one playing you the music right this very second), I decided to post some of my new favourites in there and you can sample some music. Wahey! How awesome is the internet today?

What's In The Box.

1)Christina Aguilera - Aint No Other Man (FND Private Discofied Edit) - my new spacey disco mix of Ms. Aguilera. I might play this if you guys show up early, if not I have a funkier bootleg by a Canadian Dj that I might try out.
2)T-Funk ft. Katie Underwood - Be Together - Down under Mr.Timothy gets funky with one of the girls from Bardot.
3)Lolleatta Holloway - Love Sensation 2006. The mix Im featuring here is the rather electronic-y version by Mark Knight. Its either this or the Kurd Maverick dub. We will see.
4)Chris Willis - Satisfied - David Guetta favorite male lead goes solo. Awesome singalong vocal house.
5)Chocolate Puma - Always & Forever - A great comeback track. Most are playing the Till West mix, but I'm banging on the energy of this DJ Antoine & Mad Mark mix. Ies's fave track du jour.
6)Kelis - Bossy - Scumfrog - Too delicious to ignore. I'm bossy...
7)Walker - So Deep (Chris Cox mix) - Fun vocals, great vibe.
8)Herd & Fitz - I Just Cant Get Enough - This has been out for a while but I'm falling in love with this piano driven track all over again.
9)Tony Cha Cha & Denis Christopher - Slut - a remake of Avenue D's ballsy slut anthem.
10)Made & Sax ft Michelle Weeks - I'm Coming Up - Soulful & sexy.
11)Sherrie Lea - No Ordinary Love - I might not play this as the mixes are a bit trancey but I love this remake of Sade.
12)Tina Cousins - Wonderful Life - Im trying to extend this. Big choon ya'll!

Hope you'll find a favorite in here. Expect some of these tracks this Saturday...and a plethora of fun stuff that I'll slot in.

Enjoy!

Cheer Bears

2006-06-27T03:29:00.000+08:00

Lin-Gay-A Franca

2006-06-25T23:43:00.000+08:00

Too funny. Got it over at Lady Bunny's. Gotta post this. So you think you speak gay?

Read Between The Lines

After-hours -- where you go when the bars are closed and you still haven't found someone to sleep with.

Baggage -- the excuse people use to punish their current boyfriends for things that their past boyfriends have done to them.

Bicurious -- gay

Bisexual -- gay

Bitter -- what all gay men are destined to become. Caused by drama and stress (see below).

Bottom -- orientation preferred by 95% of the gay population

Butch -- what gay men who don't think they act gay call themselves. Actual butch men will never need to use this term.

Cuddle -- sexual activity in which there is no exchange of bodily fluid.

Drama -- an imaginary condition made up by sad, lonely individuals with no real problems in their life who feel the need to drag stable, well-balanced individuals who are trying to make a valuable contribution to society down to their level in hopes of making themselves feel better.

Ex -- 1) anyone you've slept with more than once.
2) a club drug popular in the late 90's.

Excedrin -- what every gay man should have in his medicine cabinet.

Expiration Dating - Frequent hot sex with someone you know is only in town for a short period of time, and that you know you have no chance of actually dating seriously because they aren't local.

Gaylights -- an unnatural highlighting of the hair that no straight man would be caught dead with.

Gurl -- the first word of every sentence. "Gurl, you 'bout ready to go?" or "Gurl, I haven't had sex in 3 days!"

Gym Bunny -- a troll who has realized that his only chance of getting laid is to work out every day.

Hayyy -- a greeting. The gayer you are, the more Y's you put at the end.

Homewrecker -- the person who stole your ex

Omaha Diet -- unnatural weight loss caused by nonprescription medications. Also known as Jenny Crank.

One Night Stand or ONS -- a very short-term relationship, the end of which is signified by someone putting on their pants.

Philson Sex -- sexual activity in which everybody wants to get off, but nobody does. Enables you to have a one night stand without actually becoming classified as a whore, yet still significantly more intensive than cuddling.

Rough Trade -- a one night stand that you will later pretend never happened.

Shot -- when you need to get drunker faster

Stress -- a non-imaginary condition brought on by the drama of others

Top -- see Bottom

Trade -- what you bring home from the bar, paid for in services rendered.

Troll - anyone older than you that wants you to go home with them.

Trick -- See Trade

Twelve -- how old you are if you're not 21

Universe -- the area of space contained within a three-foot diameter of every gay man.

Versatile -- glorified Bottom (but will top if absolutely necessary)

Whore -- anyone who has more sex than you

Christina Aguilera - Aint No Other Man Video

2006-06-20T22:36:00.000+08:00

First and foremost, press the pause button on the player under my profile if you want to stop the music. I dont know how to make it not play automatically. So bear with me.

Ok,now on to the video. Watch the full video here while you still can.

I'm loving the intro and the closing track. I believe its called "Trouble". I remembered hearing about this track which she did with Linda Perry where she was asked to record her vocals onto a covered microphone.

Christina's Aint No Other Man video will help make this single stronger. This is the summer jam of 2006. Even if Beyonce will be bigger (I already heard the promo, its ok, radio friendly enough so it will be a big hit), but people will remember this track. And big applause for the Baby Jane mention. Haha. So she wants to be Bette Davis huh?

I did a remix for this song.

Now you can go back to the player and click on the X-Tina mix if you choose to hear it in full. Or you can always catch it when Im djing these few months. If you want a copy, download the radio edit of it for now here

Cheers.

Sex & The City Tuesday

2006-06-20T11:53:00.000+08:00

Just watch.

Thunder Perfect Mind

2006-06-16T10:53:00.000+08:00

How cool is finding an absolutely wonderful poem from a Prada parfum ad? Sounds kinda gay but I think to deny a source its credit is unnecessary. (edit* i'm gay what?) Prada took parts of an ancient Egyptian scripture (discovered in Upper Egypt in 1945 - possibly written by royal poets to describe Isis or any of the feminine deity during the Greek's invasion)and turn it into an ode to the complexities of being a woman. Inspiring. I googled for it and found the full scripture. I am doing the same, I'm gonna take some parts of that and turn it into a personal anthem.

Watch the short film here. The film was shot by John Ridley Scott.

The full version of Thunder Perfect Mind is here

Thunder Perfect Mind
(my version)

Look upon me, reflect upon me, and ears, hear me.
Do not disregard me from your vision.
And do not make your voice hate, nor your hearing.
Do not be ignorant of me.
I am the knowledge of my name.

For I am the first and last,
I am in the friends of my father's.
and the many faces of his sons.
I am the solace of my mother's labor pains.
I am he whose wedding is great, and I have not taken a husband.
I am the bride and the bridegroom.
I am the sister of my husband,
and I am the he in the offspring.

I am the incomprehensible silent
and the much remembered thought.

For I am the student of my enquiry,
and the power of my knowledge.
I am the motivation of my experience,
and the treasure of my finds,
I am the planner of my future,
and the survivor of my mistakes.
I am the power of my youth,
and the rod of my old age.
I am unlearned and learning,

In my weakness, do not forsake me,
but do not fear my strength.
For I am he who struggles in fear
and finds the strength in my trembling.
I am the substance in my errors.
and the fruit of my achievement,
For there is no need to curse my pride.
For when I am senseless, I am wise.

Hear me in gentleness, and learn me in roughness.
I prepare my bread with my mind within.
Dont judge my decisions like a child, small and little,
For some smallnesses,
Are known from the greatnesses.

I am an alien, I am a citizen.
I am control, and uncontrollable.
I am soldier, I am peace.
I am the knowledge of my name.

Get Together

2006-06-15T17:02:00.000+08:00

I havent been able to do any posting lately coz it's been crazy with work. As usual. That and the gym baby steps. Yikes. I'm beginning to sound like the people I complain about. Ok. No more gym talk. It's just that I go after work (8.30 pm onwards) that by the time I get back home, I'll be so damn tired that I could hardly do anything but sleep. On the plus side, Im sleeping like a baby.

Youtube highlight for the week. Madge's new video for my favourite track of Confessions , "Get Together" is finally out. One word. Trippy! The trippiest piece of visual psychedelic since the speedy Ray Of Light. I guess she's just too busy (or lazy) to shoot a video so what we get are recycled images from Live at Koko and Coachella sequenced into a new video. Not that it's bad, but I was kinda hoping for a Mark Romanek like video ala Bedtime Stories,which would be perfect.

Unfortunately the official remix package was still a little disappointing tho I shouldnt complain, coz as if I'm playing that many gigs! Hah! But then at least the Danny Howell's remix is usable I've just included that in my set list for Flirt. Come early to the party coz they're giving away free mix cds for the first 400 or 500. Back to Madge.

Isnt it amazing how she sound so heartfelt when she's not trying too hard? Stick to the dance pop love. It works.

So this Friday, tomorrow I mean, I have another I Am Fabulous party to Dj for. I think Zouk was pretty happy with the turnout that they decided to hold another one. However this time they are trying to push Leonard as a back to back partner with me. I will be playing 11 - 12, and 1-2 and Leonard will play 12-1 and 2-3. We will see how that goes. I hope everything will be fine.

Ah. More partying tomorrow.

Aint No Other Man But You

2006-06-10T21:33:00.000+08:00

Fierce beyond belief. X-Tina new single with DJ Premier rocks. Watch her perform it as Veronica-Lake-chanelling-Aretha-as-Tina-Turner for MTV Video Awards. Mind blowing. The single is leaked everywhere online too. I cant wait to hear the rest of the album after seeing this. You go girl. Work it like ya mean it.

On a more humorous note, I totally dig the Gnarls Barkley as Star Wars performance too. Was this the theme? To perform as movie stars? Christina = Veronica Lake, Gnarls = Starwars. Pretty smart planning. I love Crazy, but Im hearing it way too many times as ring tones now that Im beginning to get sick of it.

I have so much new music in my mp3 player that I think I'm beginning to lose the purpose of having all this music. I'm gonna go back and delete some and listen to maybe three album a week. I want to like some new stuff but I think me piling all of them in one playlist is kind of a sensory overload.